Who Knows? I don’t.

I don’t what to say really. I have a very boring life. I still have my job. And I thank that. I guess everyone there really likes me. I was kind of surprised by that. I didn’t think they would to be honest. I guess I’m more like able( should that be one word l.o.l.)  than i thought.

I still have o license and just a permit. I guess that's my fault I never do ask to drive. I’m kind of scared. Part of me has a fear of driving. Sometimes I am even scared to be in the passenger seat. I’m not sure why. I have never been in a car accident.

I haven’t been to any concerts since Day zero. I haven’t talked to anyone famous since that night. Which I’m still glad I got to meet Trevor.  That was a grand night.

 

 

Destiny Is going good. I’m on chapter four. After restarting it about three times. Its insane. But I think I finally like where I am going with it.  if you want to know more about that you can go here http://www.facebook.com/pages/Fearless-Writing/108895779161899?ref=ts. That link should work. I also post my poetry there. Though I post it here too. 

 

 

Something to close this with…

Meet Me: The girl who doesn't care what people think. I'm un-proper about the way I speak sometimes what i write. I don't want to follow anything that anyone says is Proper. I want to be different. Make a stand.
I die my hair
I wear make up
I'm me
I wont change for anyone
I will respect people and what's around me.
I believe in god and Jesus. To me its a relationship not a religion
I live to sing and write. That's my passion
Didn't know any of that then you didn't know me. Now you do.

Kacie

Tears (Poetry)

I want to cry tears for you
Teas that tell a story
Stories of Bright blue skies
And Of the dark black nights

Things that get hard for you
And no else sees that
You suffer each day

Just trying to get by with out losing yourself
This is life for you day to day
Going to the home, with all that screaming

To the shouting
Home to where the anger is felt in the air
Each day you being to hate your life

Living on the edge
Trying to make it end
Shedding the invisible tears

The ones you only see
That you only feel

And know sees what dwells in you
Only me
Because I am you

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The Turn Around (Poetry)

The tears fall from her crystal blue eyes
Her cheeks becoming a flush pink
No one understands why she cries these tears

The anger she feels is like a hot blazing fire
The sadness she fess is like the blue ocean
So big, but so lonely

Feeling that no one can understand her pain
Her life filled with anger, fear and Hate
Always telling everyone that she will be okay

When deep down inside she is crying
All she knows is how to hide pain
Hide the anger

The world makes no sense to he
It’s a shattered place
And all she’s searching for is something greater

Only to find a friend
Someone who shows her the way to Christ
To turn everything around

Now living for one thing
And nothing else…
God



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Jesus (Poetry)

The pitch black taking over
The light disappearing as he suffers

Each sharp crackle of the whip,
Making him want to scream

Blood flowing like a river from his body
The nails piercing his hands and feet

The cloudy gray sky, taking over the sunny day
Screams Cries coming from those around

Why did he suffer like this..
For us who seem so worthless

Worthless Compared to him
Worthless compared to his kind soul

But to him we meant something
We meant love

He suffered for us
So we could live and be forgiven

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Forbidden Love (Poetry)

Aching, deep down inside her heart
Never understanding why it must be this way
She loves him and will always will

He says he loves hers, That he always will
He says words that bring on a smile
That make he cheeks turn pink

The feeling of his gentle touch around her waist
The feeling of his tender lips on hers
The feeling that can’t be explained when everything is perfect

She wants to show him that he means the world to her
Give him everything she has
But she knows its wrong

That her mother wouldn’t approve
That this love is forbidden
Will always be forbidden

Even when she loves him so


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Changing Future-Poetry

Two different colors of skin
Black and White

Two Different worlds that we grew up in
The slave and the slave owner

When we were told that our society should be this way
But now… Things are changing

The future is coming
Yet we are still from two different worlds

Black and White
Two separate schools

I go to one where we are all white
You go to one where you are all black

I had new books
When You had old

The future is coming
We belong together

But the color of our skin still separates
But we intergraded

We are in the same buildings
In the same rooms

Yet our future is still changing
We need a point where we are one

Where the color of our skin no longer matters
Where black and white no longer matters

We need to live the same life
This is what was meant to be

We need to live up to what people fought for
We need diversity

We are ONE


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Ignoring is Ignorance (Poetry)

A new world to begin
A new night to end
The world goes on and on
We keep going on and on
As the sky changes from blue to black
Ignoring everything we see
We don’t realize that people out there are dieing
They are losing everything they earned
And we… just go on and on
People are out there hating each other
Trying to die,
Murdering the innocent
But all we do is go on
Go on with our lives as if nothing else matters
We need to open out eyes
Look and see what is going on around us
Because we need to be the change
Stop ignoring
Because ignoring is ignorance




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Confusion (Poetry)

I will never understand again
                Not tonight.
Things seem to be all over the place
    The words
            Scattered on the page
Not making any sense.
    I’m so lost…    I can’t figure this one out.
Things just keep
            F   
                A
                    L   
                        L
                    I   
                N
            G
Apart.
Its all so confusing
            I feel like it has all came to an end for
Me…

 

 

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FormSpring Me

Hey All don’t know if you have heard of this website or not but ask me any question here http://www.formspring.me/follow/stream and I will answer.

Kacie

Words (Poetry)

No one gets how bad this bites
That I’m freaking out
Deep Down Inside

They don’t understand
The fact that I want to scream
And say don’t go… Don’t do this

But they don’t get
Because I’m to silent
Trying to figure out the right words

The ones that really mean goodbye
Please try to stay safe
To survive

Don’t let this be a final goodbye
Live strong
And do your best to stay alive

I know that’s not what you want to hear
But as you know we all care
We… Your friends and family

This is just our plea
Live life and stay strong….

 

 

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Final Goodbye- Poetry

I’m trying to forget you
Every part of me wants you gone
Along with all of those memories of us

We didn’t match up
It wasn’t right
I just couldn’t do it no more

I cried as I deleted your phone number
I  cried when I said goodbye
You must understand this is for the best

Its not that I don’t love
Its not that I don’t care
Its that I can’t lie anymore

We were never ment to be
We were way to different
I just need you gone

Its not out of hate
Its not out of anger
Its out of fear

I wont let you hold me back
Or tell me that you care
When part of me knows you wanted to use

I’m not your wind up toy
I’m a person who matters
This is my final say in this matter

My final and last goodbye

 

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A missing Part-poetry

They tell me it never really mattered
The fact that he never wanted me
That he never got to see my face
Or hold my hand when I was a kid.

I tried to believe them
I forced myself to think
…I am better off with out him
A man who doesn’t want me

I tried so hard to fall apart
Not to cry
He was replaceable
I had a step dad who cared
Who loved me

But somehow that was not enough
I felt empty down inside
I was slowly dieing because I didn’t have him
The one who helped give me life
I feel so lost sometime

Part of me is missing
Part of me I will never know
Why does this suck so much
Why must I be the one losing out

 

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Where Have You Gone-Lyrics

Staring at sky
Looking for your eyes
Feeling so lost tonight
Without by my side

Where have gone?
Where have you been?
I need you to hold tonight
And tell me it will be alright

My world is falling apart
You’re the one that holds my heart
And I want you tonight
I need you by my side

Where have gone?
Where have you been?
I need you to hold me tonight
And tell me it will be alright

I feel like my worlds crashing with out
I’m coming undone
Why can’t I find you tonight
Why did you leave me here alone

Where have you gone?
Where have you been?
I need you to hold me tonight
And tell me it will be alright

I need to find your eyes in the sky
I need you to tell me that it will be alright
That god is holding on to us tight.

 

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Look To God-Lyric

Each day we must take step by step
Never knowing what’s to come
Where to look
We find that we can’t always make it on our own
We need a higher power to lead us to the straight and narrow
Life’s just not easy on our own

Sometimes its hurts
Sometimes its fine
No one understands how we feel inside
Life isn’t ever easy
Always seems to be rough
But we can get through
Someway, Some How

God waits for us to call upon him
To say we need his help
To wait on him instead of making our own way
He’s waiting to make life a little easier
Because with out him it’s so hard to go on each day

Sometimes its hurts
Sometimes its fine
No one understands how we feel inside
Life isn’t ever easy
Always seems to be rough
But we can get through
Someway, Some How

God’s waiting for
He’s waiting right now
Don’t give up
Not now, Not ever
He’s waiting

Sometimes its hurts
Sometimes its fine
No one understands how we feel inside
Life isn’t ever easy
Always seems to be rough
But we can get through
Someway, Some How

Look to God

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Life Less-Poetry

Tears flowing like a river…
No ones watching,
She’s all alone tonight

No one understands all this emotion
The fact that she has never been alright
No matter how okay she seemed

Deep down inside…
She was losing it
Screaming out for help

Even when she would slowly drag that blade across her wrist
As the blood flowed
And never stop

Even when she cried out
God save my sole
Save me…

…
…
…

Before it was to late
As she laid there
Now lifeless

 

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UNTIY FEST; Day Zero

On Wednesday I took a trip up to Muskegon Michigan to go to a concert. It was day Zero of Unity festival. Which is there free day. Since I had the day Off work I was able to go and it was so amazing. Four bands performed at it. And that was, FM STATIC, VOTA, FIREFLIGHT and THOUSAND FOOT KRUTCH.

Fm Static started the concert off. Now I am a long time dedicated fan of theirs and I have all three of their albums. And they are really great.   They had a late start and if I’m right it was because of a late plane. So they had to cut their set list short. But it was still amazing. Even though their were mistakes made I LOVED IT. I definitely learned something and that gave me more confidence in myself. I learned that even the professionals make mistakes and can go on. And That's something I am going to have to apply to myself because this is what I want to do with my life.

After FM Static was Vota. I’m not sure what I think of them yet. But were good and I think I will be adding them to my IPOD soon.  They seemed to be cool guys to and I will probably see them again.

Then was Fireflight who is amazing. They really rocked it out.  Not to mention after the concert was over I went to Wal-Mart and saw  a couple of the guy that were from this band. But i didn’t go up to them, cause I thought that would be a little weird.

Last was TFK. Which was my favorite part. 

I’m also really into TFK. and they rocked the show. I was so happy to see them. they played all my favorite songs just about. And I even got to meet all of them. I was more excited that I was able to meet Trevor. Because I look up to him so much. I still want to go get coffee and have a normal conversation with him. I think he is so talented and so cool.

Kacie

 

LIFE: Work, ER, WHAT!!!!!

Hi my dear readers. Life has taken me on its train. Now that I am done with High School I have started my life.

I now have a Job. I work for Flying J/Pilot. Thats right I work at a truck stop. But don’t worry its not bad at all. I wash dishes in the kitchen. Which is sort of gross but it’s a job and I get paid. And being able to say that I have money is nice. The people I work with are pretty cool. I don’t think that I have found anyone there that I don’t like or don’t get along with. Its a nice place to work and I really mean it. But soon our restaurant will be turning into Denny's. I just hope they like me and that I wont lose my job or have to switch shifts. I like working days. Its a good time.

So that’s what's up with that. Now here's this BEWARE of cleaning product. Or any thing that you don’t know much about. Turns out I had an allergic reaction to one and it was not cool at all. I had to go to ER and find out what was up but hey I am fine now. So YAY.

This week is going to be grand. I have time off of work so I’m going on a two day trip. I'm going to Muskegon Michigan with some family and a friend. We are going to Michigan Adventures and a concert. And who out of all the bands will be there FM Static and Thousand Foot Krutch. I’m so excited I hope they do meet and greet. Cause If I get to talk to Trevor YAY :)

KJ