Headache

This story starts off boring and probably stays boring just saying.

Saturday my brother Sean and his lovely Girlfriend Courtney came up to Michigan from Ohio to stay for the weekend.  They made the 5 (or more) hour drive safely. But it was shocking to find out that the tire was falling off the car. We went out for lunch to World Buffet and we were going to head to Tracy’s house. Thank god dad decided he should check out her tire and make sure it was okay to go. Because he noticed the tire need new lugs. Well we got the stuff and on the way home to put them on the tie came off.. while we were going down the road. So we ended up staying at home.

Well late that night we decided to go to the movies. And the movie we decided to watch didn’t show until 11:59pm. So we were out rather late. By the time we got home and I was getting into bed it was about 2:30am Sunday morning. While I got into my bed and went to lay down I Hit my head on a shelf above my bed.  And I hit it hard. My head has been hurting since. But I did go to E.R. last night. They did a cat san and checked me out. I seem to be okay. And I am rather glad that I am. But my head still hurts.

So point being I so want to say the shelf popped out at me. Or my pillows move far back… but I can’t all I can say is BLah MY head still hurts. But at least I’m not dizzy no more. 

Bring Back The 90’s

Okay so I am just about 19 (1 week 6 days). And that really doesn’t matter. But I am normally loyal to what is known as ‘Christian Music ’. Bands like Hawk Nelson, Thousand Foot Krutch and Skillet  (Plus many more). But when I was a young girl around 6 and 7, I was really into Pop. But not what we know as Pop now. It was backstreet boys, Britney Spears and once in a while N’sync.

Lately I have found my self listening to BSB and Britney A LOT. I mean once you have a love for something you wont loose it. And that totally sticks with BSB.

Now when they did their spilt Brain did his own thing in the ‘Christian ‘ Music world and heck yes I was glad.  But when I herd the news BSB on AMAs I was like they are back together it’s not  a lie YAY.

Therefore I have so much more of a reason to Sing BSB at Denny's while I’m working. Even a bigger yay.

Want to hear even better news? My mom filled me in on this BSB and New Kids On The Block are touring together OMG. I so want to go. Down Fall it’s not coming to Michigan I want to cry.

So yes I know I’m just rambling on but the point to this was

Keep the Backstreet Boys Rocking and Keep Britney amazing and I’ll be happy to keep them in my mix

I LOVE BSB ha-ha.

kacie

Cutting Edge (Poetry)

It was the cutting edge
That lovely silver razor
So sharp it could slice through anything

It was a release
A freedom
A way to loose the real world

I thought it was the best
When I learned it was the worst
It wasn’t right

This cutting edge was harming me
Taking me away from life
From reality

It was killing me
I was dieing
A Slow death

Losing who I was
Find it hard to live life
Because it was an addiction

It was like a drug
I couldn’t go with out it
I need it

The cutting edge took me on a battle
One that was hard to fight
One that I had to learn to survive and I did

Now I no longer want the cutting edge
No longer need it
Because I am free from it

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VENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The last two days I ‘m not sure what has been up with me. I just haven’t been myself. And of course that always is weird.

But I got to thinking maybe I just need to vent about a lot of the most crazy, and random things. So here it goes…

1. People expect you to be practically perfect and flawless. I can’t seem to go a day with out argue with my dad. And I’m not blaming it on him. But I feel like there is so much pressure. Trying to work, save money and do everything I’m suppose to do at home. And it just makes it hard to put on the smile later in the day at work.  When you have no choice but too.

2. Ex-Boyfriends’ girl friend or should I say “Fiancé”  contacting you. I can’t not try to talking to Brandon as friends with out her trying to but into the conversation. I’m not trying to steal her man. I don’t know why she thinks that. Then after calling a certain thing  and then telling not to talk to Brandon because he wants nothing to do with me, But she can go ahead and friend request me on Facebook. When he isn't even on my friends.  I don’t know where she got the idea from, unless it’s because I said I want no drama.

3. I wish I was making more money. Don’t get me wrong Denny’s is treating me really good. If I need a day of they try to give it to me. If I’m sick they let me call in. It’s just the dumb high way being closed off and the fact that we haven’t been that busy that I haven’t been making much money.So if you live around Grand Ledge MI get your butt in the Denny’s there. THANKS.

4. Don’t call me when I’m asleep or tired.

So yeah. I’m frustrated right now if you can’t tell and trying to keep it cool. I guess life is just life.

I can’t

 

I can’t tell you what it’s like
To Go insane
I can’t tell you what it’s like
To loose your mind

I can tell you
What it’s like to hurt
I can tell you
What it’s like to cry

I know
What it’s like
To stare at scars
To feel them

To rethink
What I did
To wish
I could rewind time

To take them away
To have never found
The razor
To never have taken the chance

But now I’m stuck here
Staring at myself
Wondering what went wrong
Where I lost it

I can’t tell you
The answer
I can’t
Figure it out

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Invisible

STOP
Right there
Where you are

I’m here
Can’t you see me
I’m standing here In front of you

Look at me
Talk to me
I HERE

Don’t you see
I see you
I can hear

Why…?
I need you to hear me
I’m here

Aren’t I?

 

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Love=Waste (Poetry)

 

You wrote the words across my heart
You carved in my soul with your eyes
Taught Me what it meant to care

I knew love when I saw you
When you taught to let the scars heal
That digging up the past was a fresh wound

You kept me from going Insane
You showed me how to smile
When I really needed to cry

But now that’s gone
Its like river bed that ran dry
Love was a waste of my time.

Every minute we were together
Every second that I whispered to you
Was a waste

It never meant nothing
It was just nothing
I was NOTHING to you

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Cutting Edge (Poetry)

Cutting Edge
That’s what it was to me
Something new

Something fresh
A little swipe here
A little blood there

It was no big deal
Sure it hurt
But that went away

But then
It tore me apart
Broke me down

Made me someone I hated
It created a monster
Left me lost

I needed to be delivered
Needed to be set free
Needed a better release

I had to let go
Of this cutting edge
Of this dangerous thing

So listen when I say
Don’t get caught
In this Cutting edge

 

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The Message (Poetry)

This is the writing on the wall

The message is unclear

In fact it’s a mess

The

        Words

Are

                    Scrambled

All    

Over    The     Wall

                

Written

Sdrawkcab 

It’s like it was never meant to be read

Like it was meant to be a mess

Yet one with a message

But you have to read between the lines

               Love

Try to make sense of the this mess

                  Is

Figure out what the message is

                   Here

Try to find it when it doesn’t seem so clear

                    Now

When it really is

                    Open

It’s there in from of your face

                      Up

Right there

                    Your

Under your nose

                        Heart

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